The birth of my brother 22 years ago automatically secured me with a built-in room mate if ever I needed one, and well, the time has come. I asked him some months ago, following me telling Chris I want a divorce, if he would be interested in being my room mate. Three weeks ago I became full-time status at work, thus allowing me to think more strategically about living on my own. Him and I found a place, and will be moving in sometime next week. There are several caveats that come to mind, however:
- Neither of us plan on being in San Diego for very much longer (much to my parents dismay, I'm sure). Referring back to my previous post, I plan on being in San Diego no longer than 1 more year, and my brother will be discharging from the Navy in 2011 to join the Marine Corps.
- Related to caveat 1, we need to decide within the next 6 months if we're going to continue living there until he leaves (meaning I will be paying rent for a place I won't be living in for 3 months and potentially not be going back to at all after I complete Officer Candidacy School).
- We have absolutely nothing to put in our house besides what little belongings we both have, a TV and various game consoles that are rightly his, and a cat that is rightly mine. By some act of God, I managed to secure a mattress and two couches from various coworkers for a small fee. Supposedly it's all in great, gently used condition. At this point, I couldn't give a shit...
- Despite being able to "afford" living on my own, I will be living just within my means. I will be broke for a long, long time, which will make me leaving for OCS that much more meaningful.
But everything about the situation makes those three (and I'm sure there are more...) points completely worth the trouble. Our situation is entirely temporary. Just the fact that I'll be on my own, with my own room and own space, is more important to me than any of the negative aspects that may arise.
Not all those who wander are lost...
...life moves on. I'm still living, still breathing, happy with myself and the choices I've made with my life. Instead of succumbing to the split-second thought "it's 9 in the morning and well, I'd rather stay in bed all day", I realized not a whole lot gets done when you're just laying there. The same could be said for just about everything in life. Every day, I am faced with a situation that proves just how true that is. So I get up, time and time again. Pull back the covers and face the world, because the world will go on without me regardless.
I am on the move. In 3 months, I will be done with nursing school and ready to face the world. I want to join the Navy as a nurse; I am forcing myself to meet new challenges that I never thought I'd ever choose to take on. If I do this, I will be moving to a completely different coast for 3 months, by myself. Who knows what kind of physical and mental challenges I'll go through once I'm there to prepare me for the military life. On top of that, where will I decide to "end up" once I'm done with my training: back to San Diego, stay on the east coast, go overseas? The possibilities will be endless, and I can't wait. This is exactly the kind of thing I've been waiting for, what I've broken away from my old life for. To not only find myself, but to make myself.
The stress, frustration, and anguish of a life gone wrong are dredged up constantly. I need a fresh start to mend this broken heart. Granted, everything that ever happened to me was partially because of me, but it doesn't hurt any less. I look forward to moving on from all of this, creating a new image for myself, and coming home eventually to find that time really does work miracles. At least, that's what I'm hoping for. I will miss my family and friends more then anything, but I'm no stranger to this. For this I am thankful for coming from a Navy family. I am no stranger to change; in fact, I often times crave it. Stability, stricture, and discipline are some things I need. I'm far too spoiled for my own good, I need a swift kick in the ass and a little growin' up to boot. I also want to see the world (for free) and the spare change I'll collect along the way isn't a bad incentive.
Divorce is hard, heartbreak is hard too. But an unhappy life is unacceptable. And I am finally happy.
Originally posted at TOXiD-LOTUS.NET. You can comment here or there.
So we're back home. Glad to be home but at the same time we wish we were still in California. :( We had a really nice time. We got to see family and friends. We stayed with my dad and step mom until Thanksgiving day, then we drove to Vallejo dropped our stuff off at Jamie's and then headed to Ken and Karen's. We spent the rest of the trip visiting family and friends. We went to Apple Hill on Saturday. The kids had a lot of fun. I got my pumpkin fudge. Mmmm.

We got to see Clan Tata too. We headed to Cliche's house and played the new mario game on the Wii and then went out to dinner with Tieria/Kinon/Cliche/Bismol and Sam. :D Was awesome! Before we left we also visited Kinon at his apartment and ate yummy chinese food with Tieria/Sam/Bismol and Kinon, and then played a um board game. Also Fumiko broke one of Kinon's plates. >.>
Lots of stuff happened and I need more time to type it all out. But we had lots of fun and miss everyone already. :( We has lots to do too. Must take a look at office furniture since Kai's chair mysteriously broke while we were gone. o.O And some of our dishes mysteriously disappeared. Seriously. My mom has no idea what happened to them. Oh also friends of my mom took Kiyoshi and Eevee home and then some other friends took Puff. So we are pet less. :( We miss them, but they went to good homes.
Originally posted at TOXiD-LOTUS.NET. You can comment here or there.
A new post! >.> A long, long, long, long post shall be coming soon. Or multiple. Who knows. I'm not sure if I'll do it before we head home or if I'll do it after. We're still in California, obviously. :p
We've had a nice time to far. We stayed with my dad and step mom for a few days and have been at Jamie's since Thanksgiving day. We'll be heading home Saturday the 5th so Kai can have a day to wind down before he heads back to work.
It's been so nice here. The weather has been great and it's been wonderful to see the families. I know Kai has really missed everyone and has so enjoyed seeing them after three years. But it's time for a shower and bed. It's late and I am tired. :)
First, we're happy to announce that the team has identified and fixed the issue with the YouTube conduit; you can now find and add videos from YouTube to your library and posts. As always, thanks for your patience!
The other news we have today is about a new addition to the Six Apart family: TypePad Micro, a new free level of TypePad that is streamlined for microblogging. We see a new form of blogging emerging that lives between the quick status updates of Twitter and Facebook and the long-form posts of "classic" blogging; TypePad Micro is designed to meet that need. You can read more about TypePad Micro in Chris Alden's post on the Everything TypePad blog.
A lot of the new capabilities we've added to TypePad this year were actually inspired by some of the best things about Vox: favoriting, member profiles, a dashboard to follow other bloggers, and easy ways to post content from other social media sites. But the things that make Vox different from TypePad are still there: Vox has always been -- and still is -- the best place for "friends and family" blogging, where you're in control over who sees what. TypePad, on the other hand, is built for the blogger who wants, no, craves, attention.
Do you have a passion or interest you want to share with people beyond your Vox neighborhood? If so, we'd love it if you tried out TypePad Micro. Maybe you've always wanted to start that obsessive blog that's just about waffle restaurants. Or want a place to share videos of your favorite band (Jonas Brothers, anyone? Anyone? ...). TypePad Micro's great for those topic-specific blogs. Take it for a spin and let us know what you think.
On the Vox front, our designers are working on some cool new themes (coming soon!). We'd also love to hear your thoughts about where we should take Vox in the coming year. What are the key things you'd like to see for Vox? If you've had a chance to use TypePad this year, what are the features there that we should bring over to Vox? And, if you're thinking big thoughts, how could we connect the Vox and TypePad communities in order to bring together bloggers and their shared passions? Your feedback is really important to us, so please leave a comment here, or shoot me a message.
And again, thanks for your patience as we found and fixed the YouTube bug!
~ daisy
As many of you have noticed, the YouTube Conduit is not working. I am so sorry about this; I know how frustrating it is.
The team is looking into how to get this fixed and I will update you as soon as I hear something. In the meantime, not all is lost... There is a work-around for posting videos.
When you're in the Compose Screen, just click on "embed." Ignore the fact that it says "Widget" before everything because you can definitely use this to embed videos as well. You'll just need to input the embed code from the video, enter a title (if you want) and hit OK.
It might not show up perfectly in your compose screen, but when you hit "Save," your video should appear just the way you wanted it to.
Hopefully this will allow you to keep posting videos while we figure out what's happening on our end.
As always, thanks for your patience.
Originally posted at TOXiD-LOTUS.NET. You can comment here or there.
First off, why is Fumiko so... cranky today? Second, why does our wireless router hate me so much? :( I wanted to write a blog post last night and the stupid thing would not connect. For the life of me I spent two hours fiddling with it and resetting it and trying to make it work! Ugh. I ended up going to bed annoyed. -.- Anyways. Been a busy week. We had guests here for Sascha's birthday for a week. Sascha's dad David, and his wife Dianna flew in from Michigan to be here for his birthday. He had a blast I think. :P He got to go to the coast and visit the aquarium one of the days they were here. He got lots of goodies for his birthday. Tons of new Bakugan stuff, some clothes, a new Nintendo DS Lite, and a couple of games for it and some badass new Converse. Gray with gray skulls. They're hot if I do say so myself. ;) I made potato salad and chocolate mousse cake with homemade whipped cream, and Kai did his barbecue and teriyaki chicken kebabs. Yum.
I ended up cleaning up his birthday mess Tuesday after I dropped David and Dianna off at the airport. Holy mess. Eep. Our anniversary is coming up on the 12th. Yay! Three years! Then shortly after that we're heading to California for two weeks to see my dad and step mom and Kai's family and some friends. Kai hasn't seen his best friends in quite some time. So hopefully we can find time to meet up with them. :D Maybe? Seeing my dad and step mom will be bittersweet. They're not doing well right now, both financially and health-wise. We're really concerned that this might be the last time we see Jeannie. :(
Well, must make lunch and get back to Sascha's schoolwork. Private post coming later hopefully.
Go forth and fill your libraries with media.
Seriously, thanks to everyone for being so amazing and patient. You are the reason I love Vox.
I was just told that the Amazon Conduit will be fixed by tomorrow. I will post here as soon as I get word that it's back up and running.
I know this has been frustrating and I am sorry there wasn't more I could do to make it less so. I really appreciate your patience though.
Cheers,